| hrumpf |
[Jun. 11th, 2006|12:26 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Huntsville | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thirsty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Fiona Apple | ] |
so i'm sitting here in Huntsville Alabama thinking about all of the wonderful things that I have experienced in Europe and kind of wondering what to do next. You know how when you spend countless hours on facebook looking at other people's photos and you sometimes wonder, wooowww everyone looks so happy. I love photos. Those moments will forever be burned into those people's memories and you have visual proof... well there: in that moment, i was happy. But were they and were you? Looking back at pictures makes me remember an idealized version of the truth. Maybe that's good and maybe that's awesome maybe that sucks a left nut... I don't know. Maybe you won't remember how uncomfortable you felt around "those" people or in "that" situation. Then someone turned to you and told you to smile. Then you do, smile that is, because you have practiced it to perfection. There you go, a picture of perfect happiness. It makes sense. I guess people don't take pictures when they are by themselves in their houses updating their livejournal blogs and contemplating stupid shit! I don't particularly have anything to be sad about, and I don't think I'm sad... I've had a wonderful weekend with Jamie Lynn! I can't believe my best friend from middle school who swore never to drink in her life... (well maybe not never... but i always kind of assumed so) finally succumbed to buying alky! We had a crazy three nights of debauchery, painting, and singing Sheil Silverstein poems to Tim's guitar riffs. Actually, I was the one singing. Jamie took pictures and laughed at us! The valley of the nice... yes. I like just kicking back and hanging out. There was some weirdness with Jimmy... but whatever, i'll deal with that later. SO... yah... just hanging out in Huntsville watching Lost with the mother. Contemplating and soaking in. Detoxing from Europe if you will as Dan kindly put it. I mean let's face it, when will I have time to update my blog again?! |
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| back from Europe |
[May. 31st, 2006|11:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Alabama | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sad | ] |
SO I finally ended my adventures abroad to my immense disappointment and yet happiness. Yesterday...omg that was all yesterday???... after spending ungodly amounts of time in transit (9 hour flight) I had to wait a lil bit longer for my daddy to pick me up. He got lost. It was fine though. I had a huge smile on my face when I was walking into the terminal for some reason. I just found everything to be funny. I think I was just really glad to be home. I had an amazing time. I'm not even going to start on writing about my adventures right now. Maybe I will in teh next couple of days because I am going to be in Huntsville literally wasting away. The homeland security officer totally flirted with me and that made things a little bit brighter! He was a hottie too. My father and I had a lovely dinner at Cracker Barrell and then I finally got to drive after a 5 month dry spell down the country roads of sweet home alabama. My friends welcomed me with open arms! The only problem is they all work and live far away. At least I have books to keep me company. Oh well. It's been all fun after all.... |
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| oh alabama |
[Aug. 20th, 2005|02:29 am] |
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| | annoyed by reminiscence | ] |
It's been interesting. I must say it's crazy how an impression of a place is in a state of constant change. A couple days ago I was euphoric. I had spent 12 hours talking with my bestest friends about life and lives and people and places, ideas and stories. I experienced the exhilaration that only a car accident NEXT DOOR to your place of residence can evoke (no one was hurt... but calling 911 is always an interesting experience). 12 HOURS we spent, Jamie, Kasey, Sarah, Brian, Tim, Anna, (Forrest, Erica, Nick, and Josh were guests for a smidge) surrounded by candlelight (the accident knocked out a light pole) just talking without alcohol or drugs or anything else but the pleasure of each other's company and the many things that had been left unsaid for so long. I don't spend that much time with people that I see every day. I mean REAL time.. where you get to know the person that your friends are becoming and have become. Then I went back to Tennessee with Jamie, my sister and bestest friend in the world to talk some more. I can't say that I've ever been more content. I didn't think about school, boys, or anything else except about spending time with my favorite couple and enjoying just being with friends. Complete comfort and lack of any want for anything. I hope to find that kind of peace in my relationships from now on. I also got to play video games... which i never do anymore! Then coming back to Huntsville was just a waste. I love Lydia and Kati! They are two of my most favorite cynical and insightful people I know. Yet, its a different atmosphere from Jamie, who I know so well and Tim, who I'm getting to know more through Jamie and her love for him. Every friend of mine brings something to me and I learn more and more about life and myself. Yet, I can't have them for long. Everyone works and has to figure out their own lives. The past couple of days haven't been the most clear and insightful just because I have been alone and even more so alone. Rambling now. Going to go to bed. Writing helps. Gets shit out. Story of Caleb at a later date. |
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| Alabama Thursday Night |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|02:38 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sleepy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Alabama Saturday Nighhhttt | ] |
So i am back to the (future) Alabazam. It has been an interesting couple of days what with trying to see all of my friends, run massive errands, read books, dentist appointments and the scheduling of events. I went to see Darrell and Kati's movie tonight at the Flying Monkey (an art gallery often used as performing space). YES, we do have those kinds of things in Alabama... weird i know. They have worked on a film for the past three months about airbands, and now are in the process of sending it out to festivals. I wouldn't say that it was a work of genius, but I thought that it was a cute film. Then I went to hang out at an Alabama dirty dive bar where Lydia's hubby was playin. I did this last night too! I haven't really seen anyone yet and its been mostly time well spent with the mother! It's been really nice. I mean it's only two days but stiLL! L.A. has lost a bit of its enchantment what with friends being gone and all; plus i'm so damn tired of the stale row and the stale house parties. It feels so empty going to college parties these days with everyone only out for one thing. Almost disgusting even, watching people scoping other people out and wondering who they are going to hook up with that night. I'm over it! I'm over hearing my friends talk about it too. It's all just empty. Sitting there watching two of my girls discussing their sex lives for the summer was almost an uncomfortable display of lost affection and need for something more satisfying than a one night stand. I just don't understand it sometimes. I mean I'm all about the women empowerment; yet, how can we see that as empowering or as expressing our sexual liberation when all that happens is girls throw themselves at guys and are left cold and un-cuddled. I can't do that. I need something more. It's always good to go back home and to get grounded, to see what you were and what you remember when you were forming into a person during your high school years. It's always a bit weird and every time it's a bit different and new. Yet, it's always worth it. Going to seedy dive bars teaches you things however, especially that baby "you got the fuck out"! I like that. I like it here though... seedy dive bars (well i kind of enjoy them too actually but u get the picture) aren't what being home means at all. I do feel like i'm somehow older and wiser and different now. College and the worthless frat parties do that to you too. Almost no experience is bad, it's interesting to discover how we grow. With that i go to sleep. |
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| ok so i officially have no idea how to work blogs and html! |
[Jul. 28th, 2005|03:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | The Wizard and I, from Wicked | ] |
Umm so that last entry was supposed to contain some semblance of a music video to enrich the lives of all of the 2 ppl that read this thing. If even!!! The problem is that I have not made it as public as I should. whatever. Yesterday I went to the La Brea Tar Pits (which is redundant to say because La Brea means "the tar"). I learned lots of interesting things about Dinysors... and its not Sabre Tooth Tiger... It's Saber Tooth CAT! RIIIghhht. Genevieve called and we joined her in Venice beach where we proceeded to play in the water and commune with mother earth. I took off my pants. WHAT? NO really... I had boy shorts underwear on... it was nice... I'm glad I put on a show for the boys sitting by the beach watching us play in the water. NO but really it wasn't that scandalous, i mean come on people, you know me! The water was beautiful, enchanting, and charming.. the beach is my safe place. Ever party that ends on a beach.. sometimes with me naked swimming in the ocean at night with random people...is a happy good satisfying thing. This was daylight, and more or less clothed however. It was a day to make me realize that I am ok with who I am and I do not need to justify myself to anyone or anything. I am what I am and that is all. I've known this for a while, but yesterday for the first time this summer I've felt ok being alone and ok knowing this. I just can't wait to see what all there is for me in this life. I'm here to explore and learn and be and create. And if that sounds corny and cheesy fuck that... i feel corny and cheesy right now. I love me. I love my friends. I love my life. And although i want more I also know that I'm ok. I'm also damn tired of little boys! GROW UP! I need a man that can take care of me that I can take care of that's not a dumbass and knows what he wants! i've decided! Ok well that's that. Now that my emotional stability is in check... umm i'm going to get back to workkk |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|02:07 pm] |
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The summer is almost over. It has been semi-eventful and semi-"i don't know what i'm doing with my life-ish". Ah well. Bonnaroo was phenomenal. Laguna Nigel was amazing. San Francisco was beautiful. Work was boring. Internship rocked my world. I read lots of interesting books, saw a couple of interesting movies. Had a couple of adventures involving Hugh Hefner with his six-pack of lovelies and silent films. I finally saw Wicked the musical...can't say that I was in shock or awe, but it was a very enjoyable experience. I feel like there was alot of soul searching going on this summer and I still kind of feel lost, but I feel more grown up at the same time. I think 20 is a shitty age. Almost as bad as being 15. I feel like 15 is just terrible. At any rate... that's all for now. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 24th, 2005|03:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Big City Lights... i'm at work ok... | ] |
Your dating personality profile:
Funny - You laugh often. People never accuse you of lacking a sense of humor. You don't take yourself too seriously.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active. | Your date match profile:
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If his jokes make you laugh, he has won your heart.
Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Funny
2. Liberal
3. Athletic
4. Big-Hearted
5. Adventurous
6. Sensual
7. Intellectual
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Practical
10. Romantic
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Funny
2. Shy
3. Adventurous
4. Athletic
5. Big-Hearted
6. Practical
7. Conservative
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Sensual
10. Intellectual
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Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions
WOW... i procrastinate more than words can say...
Instead of writing my paper/studying for my midterm... i'm taking online quizzes and updating the LJ... sigh |
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| More On Today |
[May. 24th, 2005|09:34 am] |
So i am finishing the previous entry here because I am dumb enough not to be able to change it now... yahh me and computers aren't cool people. Well I just realized that my livejournal has missed out on some good times!!! My Spring Break trip to the ATL with Kasey Chow, hanging out with Sarah Shores and her BF and then going to a karaoke bar with my girlies, Lydia coming to visit me my spring break and watching a season of Buffy the Vampire Slayer while drinking wine in my apartment and chilling, the craziness with my best friend Paula who's daddy died, the crazy stress of finals week, my secret crush that I can never realize, my frantic trip home to be in Lydia's wedding... SO MY FRIEND GOT MARRIED!!!... umm ahem.. meeting fun ppl that i had to leave in Alabama and Tennessee, hanging out with the four girlies in the square
(even though it was only for like half an hour because Sarah had to leave. BTW: explanation...so the "Square" is my 3 best friends from middle school with whom we have stayed friend through high school and even though we hardly ever see each other all at once because we are all so different and are all in different states and all have very different lives and have had respective drama between respective members of said square, the bottom line is, they're still my girls, and when we do get together, it's a "square night.")
Then yasmin came out for a surprise visit and brought me a "Slightly Dramatic" shirt for my birthday!!! She WOULD!!! Hanging out withy my mommy and all the Russian women who are my aunts basically was great. I love being home, it makes me happy!!! Aww and I saw my baby Anna, and by baby i mean my sophomore in high school little sister! Home was weird. I met a really great guy and then i went back to California... that's the story of my life.
Since being back i've been working a freaking lot, figuring stuff out, getting my life together, cleaning the apartment, reading books, watching movies, and hanging out with friends that I didn't see during the school year.
I feel like this summer is going to be slow and steady, but nice and happy, relaxing and hopefully a little bit exciting. I just have to save lots and lots of money. OH OH OH OH OH and I'm going to BONNAROO!!! YAHHH BabY! Elise, Sylvia, and Julie, and Me baby yahhhH!!!!! HOT STUFF! And Lydia and Clint and Chris are going to be there along with others that I just dont' knwo about yet! Ok I have to run off to class now... yay for being a responsible adult... hahhahahahahahahahhha |
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| today |
[May. 24th, 2005|09:18 am] |
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| | uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Lamb, Gorecki | ] |
Which Famous Homosexual Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey
So I am spending my summer working, taking class, interning at a production company, and missing home. I mean no one is around in good ol' Alabama, I'm not missing anything. I am missing some really cool boys that i have met... or one in particular. |
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| quizzy |
[Mar. 2nd, 2005|08:31 am] |
You Are 16 Years Old |
16
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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[Mar. 2nd, 2005|08:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | discontent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ani Difranco, Joyful Girl | ] |
OK! So.. alrighty... I know that it has been... what maybe a few months since I've decided to actually update. But the thing is that there have been alot of interesting things that have happened this semester that I have not written down... crazy huh. My roof fell on me, I went skateboarding in a rather unfortunate incident (hahahahahah), I saw Ani Difranco, I drew pictures, I met Nicholas Brenden, I got my picture on the front page of the Daily Trojan (Yah me and Genevieve), I almost died from stress when it comes to school, and that is all that I can remember right now! As for recent news, this weekend my darling Dan and I watched the Notebook while drinking wine... now THAT was a pleasant night... semi-drunken, bawling, and stuffed with tacos that Dan made for me, it was a purging of emotion, if you will! Friday night we just went out to huge crazy parties and hung out watching Baraka... umm don't ask!!! :D Sunday.. what did i do.. OH the Oscars, which I really have no reaction to, there weren't any surprises the ppl who I wanted to win didn't, they never do, eh it was kinda boring if you ask me. I am going to the Big ATL for my Spring Break. I just wanted to go to the South... or at least head that way for a couple of days. As much as I love it here, it'll be really good to get away. And i can't wait to see KC meister. Sarah, her friend, and Nick are all coming to visit me out here in L.A. I am really excited. Granted, it will be a little bit hectic, but also super super fuN!!!!!!!! WOOO And so now I am procrastinating the inevitability of the paper and speech outline that have to get done soon. How horrible. That's really all folks, I SHALL write more often. Cuz fun things do happen to me, and well... i mean who doesn't want the world to know about them.. Ahem! |
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[Dec. 21st, 2004|09:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Queen, Pressure | ] |
So this is my first live journal entry! I must admit i find this a little bit therapeutic to be able to vent and have people read about it. Well I'm home, back in ye Ol Alabazam! It's so beatuiful and amazing. Quite hectic as well... I've already seen Lydia, Kasey, Jamie, Tim, Jimmy, Anna, Alice, Christian, and other random ppl that you happen to run into mostly because this town is so small that whenever you go out you see at least 4 ppl that you know or have some kind of connection to. Gotta love it. I shot a movie with Jamie and Tim and Jimmy yesternight in Tenn. It was intense. I think that might have been the worst acting i've ever done... but i think i did pretty well considering we had no script, it was the middle of the night, and we basically pulled it out of our ass! We'll see what happens in the end. Eh. I love being home. Hmm. boys.. yah. I miss....hm. whatever lets not go there. |
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